black is hitam

Okey. terase nak update blog. maybe boleh cite pasal kejadian yg agak mendebarkan berlaku last week. betul ke last week? rase mcm betul dah. haha. byk sgt benda berlaku lately sampai x ingat the exact time.

saya on the way balik umah. turun je bas tuh, tengah cakap phone ngan Kak Falah, sembang pasal dia beranak and baby baru name Caamil Yusuf (gitu kot eja nya). saye dah perasan dah seberang jalan ade sorang mamat Negro dia menyeberang (ade ke perkataan ni) jalan menuju ke arah saye. saye buat dek je sebab tgh cakap phone. pastu bile dah selesai cakap phone tuh. tengok2 mamat tuh dah ade kat belakang saye. makin dekat plak tuh. aiseh. ini x boleh jadi ni.

so, i walked faster. he did the same too. nak lari mcm takut la plak. yer la. kalau lari, dia mesti lari jgk. confirm dia lari lagi laju kan. DIE DIE! nasib baik rumah dekat ngn bus stop. bile sampai je depan umah tuh. saye stopped. and he stopped too. dgn bengang nye saye pegi tanya soalan tak relevant,

"What do you want????"

berani jgk pegi tanya soalan gitu. haha. tak patut tak patut. pastu si Negro ni jawab,

"Nothing"

Garau gile! Time tuh..bile dengar suara dia yg garauuuuuuuuuuu gilerr tuh, saye lompat dan belari sekuat hati masuk dalam umah (okey! exaggerate sket). before that terkial2 cari kunci umah sampai nak bukak pintu dengan pendrive. tertukar sebab gelabah. haha. Alhamdulillah. selamat masuk umah. intai balik kat luar umh, tengok mamat tuh dah blah. Housemates saye pon semua cuak jgk. kih3. ape la mamat tu nak sbenarnya. lapar kot? terbau Peteh tgh masak sedap kot. hahadoi.

okey, sekian. itu sahaja nak cerita. Black is hitam. hahadoi. saye ni kadang2 racist sket.

bubye

Ahlami

in the end

Salam wbt.

I was doing my usual routine daily so-called important and critical experiment a few days ago. eh, a few days ape plak, kelmarin sebenarnya. yes yes, yesterday. and to make things complicated, before we started the experiment, it seemed like everything went wrong. wrong samples. wrong dilutions. there were defects here and there. and Alhamdulillah, we managed to overcome all those. we as I'm referring to me and Kate, the research assistant that works in our lab. Kate was REALLY REALLY REALLY worried that the experiment was not gonna work. so i was just randomly saying this to her,

"Don't worry. Relax. Calm down. In the end, everything is gonna be OKAY. If it's not OKAY, then it is not yet the end"

Erkk...where did that come from actually? Gulp! I know I know! It was too heavy for that kinda situation. hahahhaa. ayat xleh blah. confident jer lebih! Anyway, nasib baik dia buat muka mcm 'whatever la budak ni. dok berfalsafah la plak kat sini'. hahahadoii.

and yeah, the experiment didn't work. literally. hehehe. biase la tuh. bak kata cikgu add-math saye dulu, Cikgu Nik Rosila (belum kawin lg cikgu ni, tapi penah mengajar kakak saye yg dah beranak 5 orang dah!), nak selesai ape2 equation, kena guna kaedah cuba jaya! yeah! betul tu cikgu.

itu cerita semalam. TODAY, Kate tu datang lab dengan senyuman berseri2 bak bunga matahari mekar di taman. aicewah. she was happppppy and smiling ear-to-ear all the time. Rupe2 nya semalam jugak, her boyfriend proposed her, to get married. amboiiiiiiii patut la suke sangat. then dia ckp cmni,

"Ami, you were right! everything is gonna be okay in the end. cause i'm getting married! yeayy!!"

Erk. saye pon sebenarnya confused and blur that time. baiklah Kate! congratulations!

Everybody wants happiness. Nobody wants pain.

But you can't have a rainbow without a little rain.

bubye

Ahlami

p/s: rindu my monsters and blossoms

Saturday Blues

Salam wbt.

hi everyone. how is it going?

I've had my progress report presentation on Thursday. I thought I did better than the first presentation which was the research proposal. at least i thought. :P The questions that i got were not that bad though, at least i was expecting and guessing the right questions that they're gonna ask. Alhamdulillah. All praises to Allah. :)))

After all, this presentation is not part of the assessment components. not counted towards the final marks of honors year. :))), but the thing is, I have got to do BETTER for the final presentation. the thesis defence. ketar lutut weh!

post-presentation feeling selalu je macam ni. malas sangat nak buat keje ape2. rase nak relax2 layan movies or bace buku aje. kuang3. normal ke tuh?

hari ni Sabtuday. eh, Saturday. nak relax2 aje. bangun tido pon sah sah lambat. wakakah. rasenye the only thing that I've done so far beneficial was tukar air ikan saye tuh. kata nak wat laundry stuffs x buat lagi. baju2 yg basuh last week, dok dalam bakul x sempat nak lipat lagi. :P. ni nak basuh yg penuh dalam bakul tu pulak. hahaha. memang bakul baju ni x pernah kosong! oppss! tetiba rase mcm mak2 plak dok membebel pasal baju2 x lipat nih. hihi.

dah dah! stop feeling blues. get a life lah. jom jom! let's be productive. erk, kawin and beranak ramai2 ke? LOL

bubye

Ahlami

p/s: the best thing to cheer yourself is to cheer somebody else up - Albert Einstein

Aqeef

Aqeef is holding number 22 in third generation of

Wan Muhammad Wan Jaafar & Wan Hasnah Wan Yusoff.

so here it goes, welcoming Aqeef Naufal bin Rumaizi.

was born on July 14th 2010, weight 3.2kg

another baby, another bundle of joy.

May Allah filled our family with blessings and baraqah insyaAllah.

MasyaAllah, i really love my family.

Aqeef Naufal

- dahi luas sah2 ikut muko oghe penambe nih. hehe-

bubye

Mak Ude to Aqeef

sepintas

sepintas ku temui, senyumanmu. memberi daku sinar baru.

bubye

Ahlami

p/s: semalam xleh tido. malam ni mengantuk awal la pulak :p

ain't no sunshine

Salam wbt.

tak boleh tido la. adoi adoi adoi! adakah disebabkan mocha yg begitu sedap tadi? mungkin juga. atau mungkin juga sebab dok pikir presentation progress report hari Khamis nanti. hurmm mungkin jugak tuh. atau memikirkan best nye kalau dapat pegang baby baru, Aqeef kat umah nanti. yes yes mungkin sangat la tuh.

atau tak boleh tido sebab seronok tengok encik Ikan saye dah pandai melompat tinggi2 dalam fish bowl dia tuh. haaaaa maybe maybe! ke sebab saye tak sabar nak bace the next book 'The Gift' by Cecelia Ahern tuh? tapi tak boleh baca lagi sebab kalau start baca x boleh berhenti. maybe sebab ni jgk saye tak boleh lelap nih.

sebab lain yang buat saye x leh tido mungkin hari ni makan terlalu banyak pisang goreng? yer, saye teringin makan pisang goreng, dan telah menggoreng dgn banyak nya dan makan dgn rakusnya. haaaaaaa saye rase maybe sebab ni kot xleh tido? erm ade sebab lain lagi ke kenapa saye x tido lagi nih? tak lain tak bukan. sebab saye gedik pegi bukak balik laptop dan update blog ni lah! hahahadoi

bubye

Ahlami

p/s: i wonder if things that remind me of you, remind you of me?

p/s: sudah2 la tu Ahlami..tido tido!

Strong

A friend of mine had decided to quit honors and go back to Malaysia. and apparently she really did. last Saturday she flew back to Malaysia and that's it. halfway of honors journey for her. I was so surprised to know that she decided to end it that way. i mean, yeah..cause we've only got a few months to go. and we can just call it a-day. just A FEW months. I am terribly sorry for her. but i know, she must be feeling very satisfied and relieved now. seronok jugak sebenarnya. tapi tue lah. it's just a matter of RUGI laa for me. takpe, ALLAH knows the best. may she find a better way and journey or experience. :)

I just thought that she had been very strong lately. apparently that's not the case.

what about me? Alhamdulillah. so far, I've been coping well. Yes, phone calls with family really helps, i can guarantee that! talking to your friends really find me a way to release some kinda stresses. cause most of the time, we're gonna end up laughing about that. hahaha. very typical!

and yeah, what i think now is, you must be very strong, but at the same time, rely on others too for their support and time with us. don't forget to make DOA as well. insyaAllah everything will go well.

"It's good to be strong, but not too strong, to make people around you feel that you don't need them anymore"

bubye

Ahlami

p/s: sometimes, you don't realize you've been putting so much care for someone, until they stop caring for you.

smile

so, it's in the middle of July now. what am i up to? oh yes, finish doing honors.

tolonglah, I just can't wait all these to be over. at least, this chapter of my life. it's just like when you're reading a book. chapter by chapter. and you REALLY want to know what happen next and next. smile.

oh yes, my 4th sister, Halilah is now giving birth to her 5th child. she's in the hospital now. may everything go well and smooth. insyaAllah. hehee. adoi laaaa..nanti anak sedare Mak Ude ni jadi 22 orang lah. Ramai nyaaaaa masyaAllah. Alhamdulillah murah rezeki. smile

sometimes (eh, sometimes ke always eh?), I remind myself that whatever happens in your life. just don't forget to draw that smile of yours to others. I prefer not to show every trace of sadness. I know that when you draw that smile of yours, you're gonna get back that simple happiness in return. so, why not, give a smile every time you meet people. or bumping into each other. smile

so, smile dear smile. smile for me.

bubye

Ahlami

p/: ^____^

alamak!

oh noi noi!

what have i done to my blog?

tadi tengah dok godek2 blog nih. plan nye nak tukar template baru. tapi tiba2 x jadik. jadi hudussss giloss. hahaha. terpaksa guna theme yg disediakan oleh blogger ni yg sedia ade. and tukar2 colour sket aje. oh noi noi noi. sape2 yg sudi cantikkan blog saye? hikhik

bubye

Ahlami

come away with me

Alhamdulillah. things have been pretty good lately. I was indeed, happy with what I have and what I am today. just sometimes, you feel like there is HUGE need of escaping this world for a while. and set your mind free from all these chaos. oh no oh yes, that sounds cliche!

.please stop. i should not have said that to myself. that is just ungrateful.

Ma Abah, i promise. and i will keep that promise. :)

bubye

Ahlami

Suddenly

We make our pacts ,

We're independent .

We dump our boyfriends.

And we do our hair anyway we would like .

We figure out , that we are attractive .

And we look around ,

And now we loved to live the single life .

And then we tell ourselves we'll never fall in love again .

But then he comes around and suddenly we understand ,

That we have never really been in love before.

And suddenly I know what all the love songs that they write are all about ,

And suddenly I dont care if its right or wrong as long as he's around ,

And suddenly the things that used to sound cliche are perfectly right in your eyes .

Perfectly right with this guy .

I know its wierd ,

But we are connected .

And in some strange and crazy way I think ,

That we have always been .

And now he's here ,

And he says he loves me .

And it feels so right ,

And In fact it feels so good that I can't sleep at night .

But I just told myself I will not fall in love again .

But he just came around and then he made me understand ,

That I have never really been in love before.

And suddenly I know what all the love songs that they write are all about ,

And suddenly I dont care if its right or wrong as long as hes around ,

And suddenly the things that used to sound cliche are perfectly right in my eyes .

Perfectly right when he's here .

And yes ,

I know you might get impatient .

But look around ,

He might be walking right in front of you .

And if he touches you and you feel your skin is burning .

Kisses you and you feel your stomach turning ,

He's the one ,

He is the one .

And suddenly I know what all the love songs that they write are all about ,

And suddenly I don't care if its right or wrong as long as your baby's around ,

And suddenly the things that used to sound clishe are perfectly right in your ears .

Perfectly right when he's there .

Perfectly right when he's there .

Perfectly right with this guy.

bubye

Ahlami

p/s: perfectly right when he's there. true true. very true!

Change of Heart

Assalamualaikum semua!

okay, it's always like this, it has always been i thought. whenever i am in the middle of every single busy thing that i have to do, i will click on the 'new post' tab. surely i did, most of the time. I was doing my powerpoint slides for my progress report presentation just now. while listening to 'I cant make you love me' by Melissa Polinar. it was just too easy to drop my mind off the slides and do this.

these past few days. i think i had loads of deep thoughts. lately. Maybe because I have always always become so excited when it comes to reading new books. i just got three of those from Alexandra Potter. and I can't wait to swim deep into those books. let myself free in the opposite world. different world. what i always find is that, reading books is a way better because it doesn't really constraint you and i like the fact that the story is long lasting. watching movies will take you, say 2hours, right to the ending. but reading makes you stay a little longer. content. and satisfaction! yes it is!

crap crap!

i never get used to this kinda talk. hahahhaa

erm. sape boleh baca buku dalam bas? i mean. dalam bas yg bergerak, korang bleh membaca tak? duluuuuuuuu saye x boleh. maklum lah ade motion sickness kan. haha. whenever i read, sure i went dizzy and spinning head. but but but but. things have changed! sekarang ni saye dah boleh bace buku dalam bas. bas kat sini la. i donno how did that happen? change of state of age kot? hikhik. but i believe it's a good thing for me! :)))) YEAY!

tadi ade interview SPA. yes. they came all the way from Malaysia to interview us! ouch terharu nya! haha tolong lah! it was fun. sangat relax dan x skema. cakap macam2. siap tanya umur abah saye. adik bradik. bile nak kawin? nak wat menantu? hahaha. alahai Datuk...macam2 lah! tak macam nak interview keje pegawai sains!

okey. itu sahaja.

behind that smile

behind that smile. and yes. I miss home

Bubye

Ahlami

p/s: I can't make you love me, if you don't.