kecil tapi bermakna

Hi there. knock knock !

Dah semayang dah ? Hehe.

Tiba-tiba tanya macam tu kan. Yang belum solat lagi tuh, sila lah solat dulu yer. Hahaha macam cikgu-cikgu plak rase. Eh memang saye cikgu pon !

Kat UMK campus, saye sebagai tutor. Kat umah, hari friday and saturday sebagai cikgu tuisyen plak. Hehe. Nak cari makan sesuap nasik punye pasal. Boleh laaa kan. Wat bayar bil maxis beruk-bengg and beli air teh-o-beng jgak. Hihi.

Oh yes, nak crita pasal anak murid tuisyen saye nih. ade 3 orang semua nya,

Auni, 11 years old

Amira, 9 years old

Afnan, 13 years old.

See the age difference there ? Okay ! Age difference x kesah pon. But the syllabus difference is giving me quite a mess. Eh takde la mess, tapi fenin fenin lalat. Mula-mula tak biasa lagi. But then, when time passes by, rase mcm dah boleh handle them comfortably :) Yang penting, input yg disampaikan masukk meresap ke dalam brain and hati diorang okay ! hehe

Oh yer, nak cerita, So, last month i did make a promise to these kiddos that i wanted to bring them to KBmall. Pastu sampai laaa berlalu sebulan, tak sempat2 nak tunaikan the promise tuh. So, last week, paksakan diri brought them to kbmall. So I sort of belanja them at KFC aje. And bawak masuk bookstore. and suddenly they asked to go to Pacific to buy something. and they asked me not to go with them, together, just wait kt luar-luar tu jer. Pelik dah. Tunggu laaa kan kejap. Rupa rupanya, they bought me chocolates ! Hahaha. Aduhaiii melt-down jap rase. Terharuuuuu ! Hehe. 'Ni hadiah utk Kak Ami sebab ngajar kami'. Takpe Auni, Mira and Afnan, Kak Ami doakan semoga sentiasa berjaya dalam pelajaran, and jaga akhlak sokmo ! :)) Manners too okay !

Okay itu laa cerita terharu nya. Kecil jer cokelat tuh, tapi bermakna bagi saye ! :)

kecil tapi bermakna.

Now this is such a blessing ! Really made my day :)

bubye

Ahlami

No reason

If we fall in love because someone makes us laugh, what happens when we no longer find them funny? If we fall in love because someone is beautiful, what happens when that beauty fades? Hence love defies all reasons. When you truly love someone, you just can't find a reason.

You just do, don't you? Because I do.

bubye,

Ahlami

Post-graduation

Love is a giving away of power. When we love we give the other person the power in the relationship. They can do what they choose. They can do what they like with our love. They can reject it, they can accept it, they can step toward us in gratitude and appreciation.

Randomly found that quote :)

Alhamdulillah. We are now back to Kelate terchenta. Singapore had been giving such beautiful moments and great experience to us. Eh macam x pernah pegi Singapore plak. Hihi. Such a big big big thankfully appreciation to my Sister, Aida, or we call her Kakak since she is the sulong of the siblings. Hehe. Kakak and family have always been helpful. And Also my bff, Ina sudi dtg Singapore amik gamba Ami grad and g jalan-jalan lagi. Hehe. Also Huda sanggup meneman jugak. Eh tetiba rase mcm buat ucapan dapat Oscar award pulok doh. Orait orait, sekian terima kasih ! Hihi

Anyway, my second graduation/convocation day. This time around tak rase sedih or sebak sangat kot. My first graduation day agak rase sebak time nak naik stage tuh sebab bile tgk audiences, takdop Ma Abah. Huhu emo plak. Tapi this time, rase cheerful and excited and bersemangat jgk. Cuma, there was one thing, did cross my mind while i was standing on the stage, waiting for my name to be called. It was the experience during my honors research. Agak terase laaaa kesusahan time buat honors. And now, it's all over, and to me, it's not just in one piece of that scroll or certificate, but those experiences are also shaped in my hands. buried in my minds. Perghhhhhh ayat ! mcm mane boleh keluar ala-ala falsafah nih. Hihi. Orait orait, stop here ! :)

hahahhaha upload gambar sampai lebam !

bubye

Ahlami

Heart-breaking

This picture really broke my heart. In just a blink of eye, everything has changed. We may not know how it feels to be in this kind of situation. My prayers are with you Japan. Oh Allah, make it easy for them. Make it easy for us. Enlighten our path. Show us the right way Allah.

Sometimes what i felt is, it is so easy to get caught up in our own little world that we forget that we are all apart of a bigger picture, it may not be you today, but it could be you tomorrow. Let’s not take life for granted or turn a blind eye to those in trouble. So I guess we should keep on praying. Never give up. Allah is always there. ALWAYS !

Bubye,

Ahlami

Happy Ending

Banyak benda benda menarik dan tak menarik jugak happening these past few days. And I have always been reminded myself that whatever happens, never lose your gravity. keeping your feet on the ground ! :)

And there are also many littlest things so called series of stories happening in our life.

Hehe. Seronok la plak rase. Enchanted sangat sangat !

Continuing the story yeay !

bubye

Ahlami

Never give up

Allah does not love sins, but Allah loves to forgive.

Allah does not love the sinner, but Allah loves the repenter.

One of the biggest sins that we can do is to give up hope of Allah's forgiveness.

something to ponder upon.

The Mercy of Allah that we often take for granted.

March is here. Feels like January and February were just a few of eye blinks. but memorable enough for me. Alhamdulillah. Hello March ! Please be good to me and people i love too :)

Rindu Adelaide lah !

Ibtisam and Ahlami, on top of Adelaide Hills, November 2010

- because it says, you should never give up. it's the climb -

bubye

Ahlami

Comparison

Lately, we've been creating crazy and interesting formulas about life. It is just a part of bittersweet when you're having conversation with someone. And I just love the fact that, one single word can open you up to a whole new stories and ideas being shared :) I just love that. It's just like a polaroid. Instant and just once. You don't need big effort on that. Because if it's meant to be, then it will be. sooner or later God knows the best !

Phew. enough with my opinion !

Hehe, found this formula (quote/saying),

In the arithmetic of love, one plus one equals to EVERYTHING, and two minus one equals to NOTHING. - Mignon Mclaughlin -

So my dearest sister, Budik, as a mathematician, try prove this formula ? HAHAHA

And I think the best comparison that we should always carry in our heart is,

bubye

Ahlami

yang harum

kat rumah saye ade sejenis bunga ni. sampai sekarang saye pon xtahu nama ape bunga nih. tapi bunga ni wangi time lewat petang nk masuk maghrib tuh. say, just before the sun sets out of the earth (oloh. sebut jah la sunset. sajo nok panje ayat. hahaha).

ermm. selalu nya abah yang kutip bunga nih. eh kadang2 my mum jgak. and abah biasenye akn letak atas katil. so, selalu nya masuk je bilik tengok2 ade la bunga ni tersergam (erkk false alarm. penyalahgunaan kata adjektif) di atas katil.

ini bunga nya :)

memang lumrah la kan kita akan suka yang wangi-wangi. harum-harum.

bau baby pon best jugak. kan kan ? (kecuali time dia poo-poo! hahaha)

Wazif (4 months) and the bunga = Mat Bungo ! :P

Ermm talking about harum and wangi nih. adakah anda smua sudah mandi ni ? bau semacam jer. muahahaha random question !

Bubye

Ahlami

I am ashamed

Where is this world coming to and going to ? People are so disturbed and have no shame or sympathy. Aren't you ashamed to do this thing ? How would you like to see one of your kids being done and 'tolerated' like this ? No matter what these kids did, I swear this isn't a fair punishment for them. ooohh dear. I am ashamed :(

Blessing in disguise

Blessing in disguise means something that at first looks bad, then later proves to be good. For example, you are stranded on a desert island, and your only shelter burns. The smoke from the burning shelter then signals a boat to rescue you.

True true. selalu je kan kite dengar blessing in disguise. sangat sangat boleh kita apply in our life. okay, let's make this clear. bitter trials are often blessings in diguise :)

hmmm what to say here ? wooohhooooo tomorrow Friday ! boleh bangun lambat. hahaha tu jah hok mikkir nyo. oh hang on, x boleh bangun lambat jugak since ade family meeting. aicewah. family meeting ? Since when ? huh ? oh yes, actually, kan my cousin Faiz tu kawin, so majlis menyambut menantu nye this coming February 19th. and we as family meeting lah utk bahagi2kan tugas. Eh, tiba2 Mok Cik Min (my auntie) mentioned my name to be in the meeting as well. hahahaha. mok cik ming toksoh oyak laaa ami jadi gapo, tahu doh nok suruh amik gamba laaa tuh ! :P

Barang2 shipping from Aussie dah sampai ! woot woot ! Alhamdulllah. all the things are in good condition. even though ade koyak2 sket kat kotak. biase la tuh. kata naik kapal goyang2 kan ! Alhamdulillah :) and bile bukak semua barang2 tuh. MASYAALLAH ! now i know where did all my money go. to the BAJU ! banyak gilos baju. adoiiiii. now here comes to this problem, where am i gonna keep all those baju ? ma oyak g jual kat bundle hok mano x paka ! hahaha good idea mom ! i love you. but, ermm i love my baju tooooooooo ! sayang nok jual :P

if all the baju(s) can be replaced with this, i would LOVE to !

Bubye

Ahlami

Stay Happy

You know that feeling when you meet your old friends, your child-hood friends, and you will soon talk about every single thing that you and your friends did in the past. and minutes later, you will talk about what you're gonna do, what you will become in the future. Sometimes, we need these old friends of ours to remind us that we are still young and free to do the right things, to accomplish great things, yet still be matured and relevant in whatever cases. We also need new friends to let us know there are still a lot to be acknowledged out there, and probably waiting for us to be discovered. All these might change us to be better or probably just stay the same. Baiklah. bad intro !

It's chinese new year break ! a few of my siblings are here in Kelantan. It's good to gather with family and usik mengusik of course :) A few friends visiting, even my students are planning to come over tomorrow. woohooooo awesome ! HAPPY !

Since it's holiday, weddings ! yeah weddings. i have 3 wedding invitations from my friends. and 1 wedding ceremony that i have to put my hands on, because it's my cousin's wedding, Paih. He's been one of my best cousins I assume, since we've been playing around here and there as grown-up kids. But now, yeah, Alhamdulillah, nak kahwin jugak cousin aku sorang nih ! HAPPY !

After all, today has brought me to this kinda thought, where of all things that we've done, we should think that we all deserve all of these. There must must must be reasons for whatever happens in our life. regardless we like it or we don't, yes, we deserve all those. and i believe, everyone wants to be happy. and happiness is just like a perfume, you can't give it away without getting a little on yourself. So share it, to enjoy it ! Am i right or Am i right ? Hehehe :P

bubye

Ahlami

little things

Assalamualaikum :)

okay. 8 days tak update blog. seriously tak sempat ! aicewah gaya cakap macam konon konon betul2 busy woman. takde la busy sangat actually. boleh aje berfacebook, dan bertumblr. but yes, utk tambah berblogging sempit sket masa. okay, salah penggunaan bahasa dah tuh ! tolak 10 markah ! :P

okay, what to say ? hmmmm. update pasal students lah kan. so far, students saye nih semua nya cun cun dan hensem hensem semua nya. eh silap silap ! nak cakap students saye semua nya bijak bijak dan very talkative. sangat aktif dalam kelas. bab bertanya tuh masyaAllah ! saye zaman student pon tak tanya mcm gitu. tapi takpe, menunjukkan kesungguhan di situ ! at least, mereka x tido dalam kelas. dan yg pastinya sebab tutor best la kan. muahahahha perasan di situ!

bile dah kerja nih, baru rase bernilai nya weekend itu ! aaaaaaaaaaaa ! betapa seronok nya boleh bangun lambat ! hahaha itu aje yg ingat ! apadaaaaa :P and yg paling best hang out ngn kawan2. tapi tu la, nanti bestpren, kakling akan berangkat ke Adelaide. sobs T_T

After all these, i thank Allah for all these blessings :D and yes, probably as days go by, we don't realize that these little things will make you realize that they are big and meaningful things. contoh nya, tadi Muaz makan lip-balm Mak Ude. and last week tengah drive, tiba2 muaz tukar gear keta from D to N. ooookaayy tak rase mcm ade kaitan la plak. hehe :P

Okay, again, this is so random, but yeah, i kinda miss Adelaide ! especially watching people baking cakes and cupcakes in the TV (kalau in japanese, TV jadi terebi. hahahahha tiba2)

picture of the day ! HAHAHAHHA poor lil' brother/sister

Bubye

Ahlami

Counting down the days

Oh Allah, help us remember to count Your blessings, and not our losses

help us to count our laughter, not just our tears

help us to count our health and not just our wealth

and most of all, to count on You, Allah. not ourselves

Ameeeen

Kadang-kadang kite kena pikir ade ramai lagi orang yang lagi malang and tak bernasib baik dari kita. Dan itulah yang lebih baik, being grateful :) Alhamdulillah. but being grateful doesn't mean that you have to stop getting and being better. hehe tetiba jadi pakar motivasi plop sinih :P

PS: Counting down the days - Natalie Imbruglia

be strong for me

Salam wbt

Alhamdulillah sudah masuk minggu kedua diberi nikmat peluang bekerja sebagai tutor. Yer, saye sekarang adalah tutor sambilan di Universiti Malaysia Kelantan. hehehe jangan jeles sebab dapat keje kat kelate. woooaaaahh heaven nye ! heaven nye bukan ape, sebab dapat dok ngn family. and I can save up some money too :D Alhamdulillah.

Okay, taknak lah cerita pasal keje. hmmmmmm tapi what stories are ready to be told here ? oh yes, semalam tengok Anugerah Juara Lagu, and I'm pretty sure that I only watched 20% of all the performances. hehehe was busy doing other much more important and meaningful stuffs. meaningful ! And I was not surprised at all to see the winners, because honestly, semua lagu2 tuh saya x tahu. kecuali lagu 'Hanyut'. okay lah. tapi there was this one song called 'Ku Ada Kamu' yg saye rase agak best. probably of the lyrics. nice nice.

"Andai hari esok, langit akan runtuh, tabahlah menjunjung bersamaku, Andai hari esok dunia gelora, takkan ku gemuruh selagi ku ada kamu"

betul2. betapa penting nya family, bestfriends kite and orang-orang yg kite sayang and meaningful to us. mereka mungkin tak dapat selesaikan masalah kita, but, the situation is, when they are with us, everything seems to be okay and easy.

Happy Birthday Abah yang ke 68 !

Mak Ude and Aqeef - greenish !

Bubye

Ahlami

PS: be strong for me, and I'll be strong for you :)

Sarah

Siti Sarah Afni Binti Mohd Rawi

I still remember, when I first met her. We were both in Class of 1 Merah, Sek Keb Penambang. She had curly short hair but quite thick. and when I asked her name, she was proudly saying,

"Namo sayo Siti Sarah Afni binti Mohd Rawi. kat rumoh oghe panggil sayo adik. tapi awok tokleh panggil sayo adik. sebab ni sekoloh. keno panggil sarah"

That moment. It was the start of everything. the beginning of our friendship. She was a tough girl i should say, always a winner or super girl when it comes to having argument with boys. hehe. Sarah...sarah...

and she grew up as a very very very cheerful girl. In class, she never failed to make us laugh. sometimes, when she brought up some jokes, that were not even funny, but she still laughed herself out. and just because she laughed so loud, that all of us kept staring at her and eventually joined her as well. oh mannn. so silly ! Indeed, she was a funny person.

and when it came to emotional and heart-to-heart talk. she could become so soft-spoken, rubbing our backs whenever we needed someone to talk too, a shoulder to cry on. She cried too, just like we did. and of course, she always remind me that i am her best friend, and will always be. Whenever she texted me for hari raya wish, or birthday wish, she never failed to end the message with "I Love You soooo much Ami". Never failed.

May Allah give you rahmah and baraqah, Sarah. and Sarah, Yes, I love you sooooooo much ! Al-Fatihah to her.

Sarah, two from the left

more info, here

Bubye

Ahlami

A little reminder for you and me,

"When Allah knows you're ready for the responsibility of commitment, He will reveal the right person, under the right circumstances. Wait patiently. Don't waste your time searching and wishing. Grow and BE READY (penting nih. hehe), you will see, Allah will give you a love story far better than you could ever dream of"

:)

1.1.11

Bye-bye 2010. Hello 2011.

dah laaaaame sangat nak update blog sbenarnya. and then, I have promised myself a few months ago, that I have to have to have to have to update blog on 1.1.11. Yes, relatively, it's just a number which has no meaning in it, until someone comes along and gives it a meaning or something happens and make it memorable and meaningful :) erkkk ! gapo dio aku dok bobe ni ?

Alritey. So I went to Kedah last week, for my best friend's wedding day, Ibtisam. and her hubby, Ariff. wow ! it sounds sooooo weird mentioning nama Arepp kat sini. ngeh3. Alor Setar was fun and treating me so well. the weather. the kenduri the people and Ib's family. everything. it was just perfect. cumaaa satu saja. cheq x reti nak habaq apa2 dalam bahasa kedah. either senyum or angguk2 or cakap KL je. hikhik.

and I was in KL for 3 days. oh my. unplanned memories are always the best. I know that. and that was the moment that I will always always remember. Exactly sangat betul. kite mungkin x tahu, perancangan Allah lagi hebat :D

Most importantly, I was sooooooooooooooooo HAPPY ! indeed !

And now, back to kelate, hari Isnin ni insyaAllah I will start working as a tutor. insyaAllah, may everything come easily, smoothly. Oh Allah, please make this thing easier for me, if I happen to face difficulties, please let me go through it with a strong heart. You know the best. Allahumma yasir, wala tuassir

tiba-tiba teringat Adelaide. Adelaide is in sizzling summer now i guess. summer in my heart lah sekarang saye nih. hahaha

Bubye

Ahlami

live each moment

Tajuk takde kaitan dgn entri. it's just that I'm currently back in love with Melissa Polinar's song, Say You'll Stay :) was crazy with this song somewhere in April this year, and now the studio version of the song has just come out. with new arrangement which is pretty cool ! :D

hmmmm.

sekarang kat umah, my sisters yang dok jauh2 semua dah pulang ke rumah masing2. sunyi and senyap laaa plak rase umah nih. Tinggal Muaz and Wazif aje. Muaz almost 2 years old, Wazif baru 2 bulan. Muaz takde partner in crime dah nak sepah2 umah. so tadi dia main2 dgn Wazif. Main suap2 cereal. terkejut yang amat Mak Ude tengok Muaz dok suap cereal cornflakes hok keras kekung tuh kat mulut Wazif. Wazif coooooool ice ice bebeh jer dia. maintain. hahahadoi. lucu lucu.

hmmmm.

oh yer. hari tu my bestfriend, kaklynn bertunang dah ! :D I am really really really really really HAPPY for you kaklynn. Nomu nomu nomu nomu saranghae !

hmmmm.

Dan juga, lusa akan bergerak ke Kedah for my bestfriend's wedding jugak. sapo lagi kalu bukan Ibtisam. aduhai makcik tuh, jangan dok kalut2 sangat lah. dah nak jadi bini org dah tuh. hehe. sedap pesan kat orang :)

hmmmm.

Lepas dok Kedah for 3 days. akan ziarah (aicewah ziarah tue ) KL plak sekejap. 3 hari je pon. Question: Camne la nak bahagi2 kan masa utk buat byk benda in 3 days tuh ?

Answer: Abah said, put main/prior things on top of everything first. Ahlami said, probably the main/prior things are fun things. hahaha. Ahlami's answer can not be used lah gitu gak. cannot cannot !

hmmmm.

also, found this,

"To fall in love is a disease and its cure is to marry with the person one is in love with"

(Islamic Proverb, Ibn Al Qayim)

and this,

bubye

Ahlami

Reality

Photograph by James Nachtwey. Sudan, 1993

Hell is here, right here on earth. Tucked away in a place that sometimes we can not see. We are blind to the true hands of satan that gradually steal food, home and life of humans, hmmm human … just like us.

We complain every day about things that we can not have another day. They are expecting a little more than half of what you throw away.

Bubye

Ahlami

serendipity

my favorite movie by far :)

"Dan boleh jadi kamu benci kepada sesuatu padahal ia baik bagi kamu, dan boleh jadi kamu suka kepada sesuatu padahal ia buruk bagi kamu. Dan (ingatlah), Allah jualah Yang mengetahui (semuanya itu), sedang kamu tidak mengetahuinya"

[al-Baqarah:216]

bubye

Ahlami